Monday, February 25, 2008
i cant believe it.
reality can really be hard to accept sometimes huh?
i thought i was doing a good job getting my life back on track.
who would've have known i would only conclude a few months later during one of my private 'reflection sessions' in my bedroom with myself that i've been in denial all this while?
it took me really long to accept this proposition but i guess i've kinda convinced myself i was meerly in denial.
i meerly pushed it all aside.
maybe i did deal with some issues but it wasn whole. it wasn the real deal.
i unconsciously numbed myself kinda.
but it's easier that way.
i know 'narrow road leads to hell' blah blah blah but i dont really care.
i just want to push everything aside and let time do the dirty work for me.
i dont wanna think so much.
ultimately, i dont wanna care.
but sadly, i cant. mayb i dont know how.
someone wanna teach me?
well, i'm gonna try again. and this time i'm aiming for complete liberation.
absolute freedom.
till den.
here's lyrics to a song i wrote pretty recently - Fantasy
i've dreamt of kissing you before
turning around to end my life
i've dreamt of cuddling up with you
before letting myself just die
i've dreamt of many ways to make
sure i never bother you again
but just dreaming of suicide wont help
cus i need to feel pain
[chorus]
so help me
kill me
and if you would
do it slowly
i promise
i'll be forever grateful
i'm broken
forsaken
so you know
it'll be easy
i promise
i'll be forever grateful
i've dreamt of us together again
and oh was it so lovely
but dreams are only for sorry souls
with no direction like me
[chorus] X2
just run me over
it will only take a minute
just run me over
it will only take a minute
just run me over
run me over
run me over
please run me over
10:53 PM
Tuesday, February 12, 2008
Fact or Opinion?
1) It's better to have loved and lost then to never have lost before
2) You're not ready to love others 'till you learn to love yourself
3) It's possible to someone too much
think about it.
10:07 PM